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Any lawyers out there?
Sep. 8th, 2004 12:27 am
Lord, forgive me, for I have sinned...
To make a long story short, I have to make a confession.
One of my friends in the United States tried to send me a knife. Unfortunately, it was of the sort illegal here but not there. So customs has it detained, pending 'determination of admissibility,' and I have to sign and return the sheet they mailed me, even though from the description they wrote down on the sheet, I checked the Criminal Code, and it's most definitely illegal. I know they won't clear it. They might even press charges of illegal importation (see section 104 of the Criminal Code, link above). Either way they can't even return it to him, they have to destroy it. But I'm certainly more worried about what's going to happen to me than what's going to happen to the knife.
It's not his fault he chose to get that one for me. It's my fault that I didn't tell him about the regulations here beforehand. And now I don't know what to do but feel close to death. I never expected to come this close to screwing myself for life, because even for those couple of times I carried my knife with me outside it wasn't like anyone was looking, or would have seen it.
Now I suddenly find my life hanging in the balance. A very life-threatening balance. Somehow I think that if the worst did come to pass I would rather die than to live with a scar so young, with so many years ahead left to suffer for this.
Suddenly I feel like I need to talk to some faith counsellor, like the really really cool Catholic priest (Father Dave) I met at St. Joe's College today. Although our tour group didn't see much of him, he seemed to radiate inner peace, which was really amazing. Maybe someone like him could lift this load off of me. After all, religion isn't evil or anything. I've already joined an Asian students' club, not realizing it was Christian. That's fine too. It's not like I think God is wrong or anything.
I'm just so loaded with thoughts right now I can't get them down on paper fast enough. So I'll leave you with that for now.
To make a long story short, I have to make a confession.
One of my friends in the United States tried to send me a knife. Unfortunately, it was of the sort illegal here but not there. So customs has it detained, pending 'determination of admissibility,' and I have to sign and return the sheet they mailed me, even though from the description they wrote down on the sheet, I checked the Criminal Code, and it's most definitely illegal. I know they won't clear it. They might even press charges of illegal importation (see section 104 of the Criminal Code, link above). Either way they can't even return it to him, they have to destroy it. But I'm certainly more worried about what's going to happen to me than what's going to happen to the knife.
It's not his fault he chose to get that one for me. It's my fault that I didn't tell him about the regulations here beforehand. And now I don't know what to do but feel close to death. I never expected to come this close to screwing myself for life, because even for those couple of times I carried my knife with me outside it wasn't like anyone was looking, or would have seen it.
Now I suddenly find my life hanging in the balance. A very life-threatening balance. Somehow I think that if the worst did come to pass I would rather die than to live with a scar so young, with so many years ahead left to suffer for this.
Suddenly I feel like I need to talk to some faith counsellor, like the really really cool Catholic priest (Father Dave) I met at St. Joe's College today. Although our tour group didn't see much of him, he seemed to radiate inner peace, which was really amazing. Maybe someone like him could lift this load off of me. After all, religion isn't evil or anything. I've already joined an Asian students' club, not realizing it was Christian. That's fine too. It's not like I think God is wrong or anything.
I'm just so loaded with thoughts right now I can't get them down on paper fast enough. So I'll leave you with that for now.
