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I am nothing but a silenced speaker; even if I wrote a perfect speech for grad they wouldn't let me do it -- why would they choose a nobody like me to speak for the whole class when there are so many others that the class would recognize and identify with the instant they are beholden? I am doomed to be silent because nobody knows me and never will. I am unremarkable; there is nothing about me that makes me special in the eyes of the masses, for my greatness is only in principles that so far only I alone adhere to. I am invisible if not laughed off as unrealistic and out of touch with reality, when the fact is that they are out of touch with themselves. You can call me narcissistic if you want but it still remains that the smallest minority isn't being ever given a chance to be heard by the masses. Does open competition base itself only on skill but not content, or more of the former? Don't you think...that perhaps the message is more important than the person who says it? People say it's only my problem that people don't hear me out and that I'm just not good enough to get a role, but certainly I'm doing my best even trying for the roles. Don't people realize that one of the best ways to heal a broken spirit is to give it not encouragement, but a chance to shine, to give it not rejection, but acceptance at a time it needs that most? How can one regain confidence in himself and the world when all that faces him is rejection after rejection, even if he believes in his own talents and abilities? Confidence does not come only from within. One may be able to count and appreciate his blessings but ultimately if people don't acknowledge them he will never feel at home in the world and shall doubt himself once more...it only digs the hole deeper and deeper for him and does nothing to help free him.