Pain all over [journal]
Aug. 12th, 2004 12:37 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kyrasantae
There's a point of pain in my chest, as if I've just been stabbed in the middle of myself, and everything. Lying here prone I feel like I am slowly bleeding to death...
I am losing quite a bit of hope in my finger. Wrist is getting worse too. I've bound both tonight, as tightly as I can without blocking circulation. My thumb also feels slightly sprained at the joint too. Same finger on left hand acting up like the bound one too. This is an emergency.
Do you think I deserve an ignoble death because I have poisoned to death my mind and killed myself in my imagination so many times? And what of my other sins? I don't believe in life after death. I will be punished at death, not before or after.
I am losing quite a bit of hope in my finger. Wrist is getting worse too. I've bound both tonight, as tightly as I can without blocking circulation. My thumb also feels slightly sprained at the joint too. Same finger on left hand acting up like the bound one too. This is an emergency.
Do you think I deserve an ignoble death because I have poisoned to death my mind and killed myself in my imagination so many times? And what of my other sins? I don't believe in life after death. I will be punished at death, not before or after.
