Section One
Mar. 24th, 2010 06:50 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kyrasantaeOriginally posted at BGG
I taught my first full lesson today. I didn't have too much planned but it seems like whenever I make sequential notes for myself, I end up not following the sequence and confuse everybody (including myself) by jumping around. My mentor teacher didn't think it was actually too bad, but I had suspected that the problems I created on the worksheet were going to be too difficult for the kids and was hoping that we'd look at them together in the morning first and make revisions before I printed the sheets off. And they were too difficult, which led to even more confusion with the kids.
I feel like I'm running into a wall with this whole teaching thing. It's not that I can't do teaching, it's a feeling of bad conscience. It'd be lying for me to say that I care about whether or not kids are learning. Not with a group of 35 kids, anyway. Small group or one-on-one tutoring, where I can really get to know each of them? Sure. With the large group there's inevitably babysitting involved and I hate that. And to be honest, I'm only doing this degree so that I might have a better chance at going to Finland or to grad school or both. I don't dream of myself as a classroom teacher, just as I don't dream of myself as being...well... anything but an eclectic bookworm and scholar (and maybe a rock star by night).
I'm so tired I was yawning by the end of the school day, and I just want to sleep my 8 hours starting right now (7PM), and make my lesson plan for tomorrow at 3AM. I'll need to teach the stuff from the end of today's class again, since I messed it up. But I'm still not really sure how to sequence it. I'm kind of a scatterbrain.
I taught my first full lesson today. I didn't have too much planned but it seems like whenever I make sequential notes for myself, I end up not following the sequence and confuse everybody (including myself) by jumping around. My mentor teacher didn't think it was actually too bad, but I had suspected that the problems I created on the worksheet were going to be too difficult for the kids and was hoping that we'd look at them together in the morning first and make revisions before I printed the sheets off. And they were too difficult, which led to even more confusion with the kids.
I feel like I'm running into a wall with this whole teaching thing. It's not that I can't do teaching, it's a feeling of bad conscience. It'd be lying for me to say that I care about whether or not kids are learning. Not with a group of 35 kids, anyway. Small group or one-on-one tutoring, where I can really get to know each of them? Sure. With the large group there's inevitably babysitting involved and I hate that. And to be honest, I'm only doing this degree so that I might have a better chance at going to Finland or to grad school or both. I don't dream of myself as a classroom teacher, just as I don't dream of myself as being...well... anything but an eclectic bookworm and scholar (and maybe a rock star by night).
I'm so tired I was yawning by the end of the school day, and I just want to sleep my 8 hours starting right now (7PM), and make my lesson plan for tomorrow at 3AM. I'll need to teach the stuff from the end of today's class again, since I messed it up. But I'm still not really sure how to sequence it. I'm kind of a scatterbrain.
