Materialism

[kyrasantae]

<kyrasantae> sometimes i ask my friends if i should go shopping
<kyrasantae> and they'd be like "you should buy something, reward yourself"
<kyrasantae> but i don't feel that way at all
<kyrasantae> there's no such thing as a reward, just more stuff to clutter up my room
<kyrasantae> and games i'll never play
<kyrasantae> crap i eventually get sick of and give to other people
<kyrasantae> and i can be just as materialistic as the person next to me, but there's a guilty conscience
<kyrasantae> and it's not a conscious sort of guilty conscience like "self, you need to be more european and stop thinking about material things"
<kyrasantae> it's just an intuitive "this doesn't feel right" feeling
<kyrasantae> and then i collect random finnish crap that no one else wants
<kyrasantae> :p
<kyrasantae> i guess my motives for getting random finnish crap that no one else wants is ... different though :s
<kyrasantae> it's like collecting scraps of reminders of the time the world around me made sense :(