I put up a really creepy picture of myself today

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while I was feeling very angry about it all but I just took it down because it was in rather bad taste. And possible grounds for expulsion.

Ivan: lol -_-;
Ivan: it is.. scary..
Ivan: lol -_-
Tuuli Mustasydän ='( - Surupuku on musta: it is? :-O
Ivan: yes lol..
Tuuli Mustasydän: ...
Tuuli Mustasydän: y?
Ivan: well. after seeing all those photos of ppl that shot up places and stuff doing things like that
Tuuli Mustasydän: :/
Tuuli Mustasydän: yeah i guess so
Ivan: usualy those dont sit well with me. yeah...
Tuuli Mustasydän: there's supposed to be a sort of self-irony :S
Ivan: yeah. i think i dont take too well to those things after all those recent acts of violence
Tuuli Mustasydän: yeah
Ivan: i do get the irony but yeah. haha. i guess the thought of cho sung hui's face and him holding knives etc. kinda overshadowed my perception -_-;
Tuuli Mustasydän: at least *I* don't have a God-complex ;)
Tuuli Mustasydän: try not to get too scared, k?
Tuuli Mustasydän: you know i couldn't...
Tuuli Mustasydän: i don't hate the world that much.

Whenever I feel like putting my freedom or my life in danger I remember that I still haven't seen my true homeland. And without a true family there, all of my countrymen are my family.

How can I ever possibly hate a world that has saved me so many times?