Sometimes I wish I had anti-anxiety drugs

We're driving out to Vancouver in the morning and yet I'm still awake and can't seem to sleep. I've tried everything that normally gets me to sleep like putting on my favorite music, turning it off, stretching, reading, a trip to the bathroom... it's not working. And then there's that burning feeling in my gut from the oops-too-hot chili peppers I ate yesterday...

Or perhaps it's a deep foreboding feeling that I need to get my voice back into tiptop singing shape in about a week once I get back to school for that band audition... after not singing at full voice for more than two months... was trying to sing along to a few Within Temptation songs (including a few highly challengingly high-pitched ones and some not-so-much) and had a lot of trouble (partly because I wasn't singing at full voice)... granted, I'm auditioning with Nightwish songs and those don't go nearly as high... (In my email to the band I said that I'd sing "Jillian" by WT if I felt daring... I heard it again today and I'm thinkin': I TOTALLY forgot how high the entire song is. "Daring" was definitely the right word.)

*shrug*

In any case it's too soon to get excited about anything... but it's almost like I can't help it. I stand a chance with these people; it's the right genre. I don't want to blow it.

I'm concerned also about all the dust I probably inhaled during my six weeks at work and how long it'll take for that to clear out from my lungs, because I've noticed much more coughing and irritation in my throat since then.

But something is keeping me from sleeping and I don't know what.