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kyrasantae
I wanted to post this earlier, but I was too exhausted. I woke up from a 5 hour nap to a call from my parents, asking about my exam this morning and the transfer process.
Thermo"dramatics", indeed.
Written this morning before the exam:
===
- Do not cry, my child, it will be over soon.
- But this last fight, what of it?
Must I still battle on?
- The world will go on turning without you.
Your friends will live; they will remember you.
- There's no use fighting, is there,
when in doing so I will die,
and in not doing so I will perish?
- This battle is not the one to win the war.
Wars are never won. All they do
is take people like you to heaven.
- Then I shall fight!
- It may be better to stay behind.
You are nearing the end; you will find
your place with your comrades in time.
For now you should rest. Be at peace.
The poison will leave you and the pain will be gone.
===
I listened to the people around me write enthusiastically on their papers... it's the last exam of the exam season and people are understandibly eager to get it over with. It's a long one too, three hours compared to the usual two (or 2.5, for math).
I didn't know how to do too much on the paper. I could do a few things, but not too much. Optimistically, I pulled off maybe 30% on that paper. It's worth 55% of my final grade. Nuh-uh. I don't see a D waiting for me on the other side.
I sat around, doing some estimated grade calculations on the back of a formula sheet.
Whether I pass or fail this course, I'm going to be on academic warning. Not only that, I'll be *squeakingly* close to the cut-off point for requiring to withdraw for a year... Academic warning means I have to take a certain course load next year (which will be less than engineering course load, of course...anything is less than an engineering course load), and have to maintain a GPA above 2.0/4 (equivalent to a C).
It shouldn't be a problem when I'm in chemistry, because I want to do chemistry specialization (instead of the general major/minor route), and that requires a 2.3 (C+) to stay in the program (otherwise you have to drop back to the general route). Plus I've always done well in Chemistry. I got a B and a B+ in intro chem last year, and another B in organic chem this year even with the final exam blankness.
Well, it's over now. Just the last little hassle of getting the transfer paperwork in on Monday and I'll be free again.
I'm thinking of incorporating the above, uh, creative writing bit into a new fantasy story/novel or something. I've never been terribly good at carrying a storyline, but maybe if I just write without thinking of a plot, something will happen... and I've been away from fantasy writing for so long (since the Sundering six years ago), the Awakening has made me feel that I miss it a little.
Thermo"dramatics", indeed.
Written this morning before the exam:
===
- Do not cry, my child, it will be over soon.
- But this last fight, what of it?
Must I still battle on?
- The world will go on turning without you.
Your friends will live; they will remember you.
- There's no use fighting, is there,
when in doing so I will die,
and in not doing so I will perish?
- This battle is not the one to win the war.
Wars are never won. All they do
is take people like you to heaven.
- Then I shall fight!
- It may be better to stay behind.
You are nearing the end; you will find
your place with your comrades in time.
For now you should rest. Be at peace.
The poison will leave you and the pain will be gone.
===
I listened to the people around me write enthusiastically on their papers... it's the last exam of the exam season and people are understandibly eager to get it over with. It's a long one too, three hours compared to the usual two (or 2.5, for math).
I didn't know how to do too much on the paper. I could do a few things, but not too much. Optimistically, I pulled off maybe 30% on that paper. It's worth 55% of my final grade. Nuh-uh. I don't see a D waiting for me on the other side.
I sat around, doing some estimated grade calculations on the back of a formula sheet.
Whether I pass or fail this course, I'm going to be on academic warning. Not only that, I'll be *squeakingly* close to the cut-off point for requiring to withdraw for a year... Academic warning means I have to take a certain course load next year (which will be less than engineering course load, of course...anything is less than an engineering course load), and have to maintain a GPA above 2.0/4 (equivalent to a C).
It shouldn't be a problem when I'm in chemistry, because I want to do chemistry specialization (instead of the general major/minor route), and that requires a 2.3 (C+) to stay in the program (otherwise you have to drop back to the general route). Plus I've always done well in Chemistry. I got a B and a B+ in intro chem last year, and another B in organic chem this year even with the final exam blankness.
Well, it's over now. Just the last little hassle of getting the transfer paperwork in on Monday and I'll be free again.
I'm thinking of incorporating the above, uh, creative writing bit into a new fantasy story/novel or something. I've never been terribly good at carrying a storyline, but maybe if I just write without thinking of a plot, something will happen... and I've been away from fantasy writing for so long (since the Sundering six years ago), the Awakening has made me feel that I miss it a little.
