Your local frustratee.
Apr. 16th, 2004 12:45 am[On the second close encounter of the Antonuk kind in two days] Oh no, not again! (In this case I immediately hid myself in the nearest clasroom. It's hard not to feel paranoid over someone who scares you / you are afraid of.)
I don't know why I've been so irritable lately. Every little rejection or negative comment in my direction sets me off. Maybe it's my nitpicking or people as an extension of the quest for the reperpetration of truth and correctness. Maybe I'm too tired of trying to help but not ony unrecognized, but negatively dismissed for it. Maybe I'm tired also of people wasting my time by repeating the same criticisms over and over while it's the other singers who need to hear it because I've been doing it right. I guess mostly this 'drifting' feeling I've had. Drifting around to find a place to fit in, where people express their appreciation for others' advice and corrections.
I don't know why I've been so irritable lately. Every little rejection or negative comment in my direction sets me off. Maybe it's my nitpicking or people as an extension of the quest for the reperpetration of truth and correctness. Maybe I'm too tired of trying to help but not ony unrecognized, but negatively dismissed for it. Maybe I'm tired also of people wasting my time by repeating the same criticisms over and over while it's the other singers who need to hear it because I've been doing it right. I guess mostly this 'drifting' feeling I've had. Drifting around to find a place to fit in, where people express their appreciation for others' advice and corrections.
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Date: 2004-04-22 09:10 am (UTC)Sorry for not replying sooner, pesky RL has been keeping me busy. I've done lyrics translations of Finnish bands before for friends, but I always get the feeling that not only am I doing unjustice to the lyrics, I'm also ungraciously raping both Finnish *and* English in the process... But I'll try to do a passable job.
Could I perhaps e-mail them to you or would you prefer I post them here?
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Date: 2004-04-22 09:35 pm (UTC)Here it is *at last*
Date: 2004-04-23 09:14 am (UTC)Samarialainen
Kauan sitten tai kauemmin
kerjäläisen tapasin
kuin koira apua anoi
silloin nousi mieleeni
yltäkylläinen kotini
hyvä huoli minussa sanoi
Vaikka jakaisit kaikkesi
päästäisit hänet pöytääsi
silti sinulle kylliksi jää
Muistan viime sanansa
en voi mitään korvata
mutta taivas kaiken hyvittää
Niin paikalta pakenin rakkaitten luo
en kerjäläisiä sentään kotiini tuo
ja onneni käsitin näin miettien
laupias olen vaan en samarialainen
Monta vuotta myöhemmin
kuolinvuoteella makasin
kun kolme enkeliä näin
uskoin vielä taivaisiin
minut sinne johdettiin
missä kaikki kääntyy nurinpäin
Kuin koira nyt vaellan helvetissäni
pimeästä kuljen pimeään päin
ja viel' murtaa käärme kuiskuttaen
sinä et ole mikään samarialainen
Samaritan
A long time ago or longer
I met a beggar
cried out for help like a dog
then to my mind rose
my overabundant home
the concern in me said
Even if you gave all you've got
(even if) you allowed him to your table
you would still have enough to spare
I remember the last words
I cannot repay you
but heaven will reward everything
So I ran away to my loved ones
I wouldn't bring beggars to my home
and I understood my happiness thinking thus
I'm merciful, but I'm not a Samaritan
Many years later
I laid on my deathbed
when I saw three angels
I still believed in heavens
they took me there
where everything turns upside down
like a dog I now wander in my hell
I travel from darkness to darkness
and still the snake tells with a hiss
you ain't a Samaritan
Re: Here it is *at last*
Date: 2004-04-23 11:00 am (UTC)