Inadaquate explanation [journal]

[kyrasantae]

Our fuses were lit at the beginning of the year, and as time passes we adapt to the new atmosphere, the fuse burning down and setting off the dynamite at a sort of climax. In an explosion the outward energy of the dynamite continues to travel outward and is channeled to make the building destruct outward. But I reached the climactiv trigger-point at the end of first term despite my troubles, and then the progress I had made in adaptation collapsed on itself and reversed the process. I think I am farther back than where I began. While others learn to flourish academically with questionable social practices, I can't even say the reverse is true for myself. Perhaps I...