Concerns [journal]
Aug. 16th, 2004 11:45 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kyrasantae
Within me I feel a dimming flame, a torch that will die as I step into the void of the unknown.
Interesting how my worries are not about academics but always about putting together this supposed new life and living it in a way that resembles to the best of its ability what I picture in my mind. Unfortunately without all of the danger and adventure, of course.
Why is living my greater concern? Because I've never been able to live my life on my own terms (and if not that, a life where the one in control understands me -- that person being me, of course). Because I need a break from worrying about studying and grades. Mostly because I think that better understanding of how my living habits must change will lead to a better understanding of what is going on in my mind and how it works.
Interesting how my worries are not about academics but always about putting together this supposed new life and living it in a way that resembles to the best of its ability what I picture in my mind. Unfortunately without all of the danger and adventure, of course.
Why is living my greater concern? Because I've never been able to live my life on my own terms (and if not that, a life where the one in control understands me -- that person being me, of course). Because I need a break from worrying about studying and grades. Mostly because I think that better understanding of how my living habits must change will lead to a better understanding of what is going on in my mind and how it works.
