Watch out for bookstores [journal]

[kyrasantae]

It must be a guy thing. Why else would there exist books like illustrated guides to police tactics and skills and similar books on sniping techniques, let alone them being sold in the open in a reputable [chain] bookstore? I bet that sort of thing is banned in North America, or at least, sold through mail order only. Regardless, no matter how evil I could feel at any given moment, that sort of stuff is taboo to me. Put it this way -- I must allow myself to have the whole of both the equipment and knowledge to give in to the evil within. Indeed the evil tempts me still. In times like these when fear of the future takes over me, that's what happens. My dark fantasies take over my daydreams and passing thoughts. Clips of death blows and blood are on continuous replay in my head. I don't hate that, but I think that my only restraint to making them reality is physical acquisition because of law, not moral.