Two feet in
May. 26th, 2008 11:59 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kyrasantae
I'm tired, barely keeping my eyes open, bored, and generally just really bummed out today. I think it started with the rain, but I always feel really awful after I accidentally say something that I later realize might have been extremely rude. I'm just at a department store paying for my stuff when the clerk asks me something, which I don't understand. There's a gift wrap station behind her so maybe I thought she was asking if I wanted it wrapped (since it *was* a gift item, after all), so I said "ei". She kinda gave me a concerned look and said "ei...?" as if waiting for an explanation. Only later did I slowly realize she must have done a Wal-Mart and asked if I had found everything I was looking for - which would still be accurate because I didn't *quite* find everything I wanted.
As stupid and trivial as it sounds, accidentally saying something really stupid like that makes me feel awful. I don't know why.
Not to mention that J has gone home for a couple of days and that means no piano or facebook here, because she locked her door. I also have no meat. I may not eat a lot of meat, but it's important.
And I have reason to be concerned about everything else -- I can't seem to be at the right time to get to the laundry room, and the N. Americans talking about their plans for the pubcrawl tomorrow are really bothering me. (real)Tuuli said that she thinks people won't be too drunk because we all have commitments on Wednesday but I'm not convinced because I think I know Canadians better. They're already proposing to ask our teacher if we can start class later on Wednesday. But I feel compelled to go because they will be stopping at the karaoke bar, and I need to get a photo of myself in an anxious situation for an assignment: maybe I'll just go outside and busk on my flute or something if I get too uncomfortable.
So I was sitting at Cheers tonight with the "group" and I heard all of the above that brought me concern, and then I typed desperate text messages to Harri. After a few long desperate phone calls today I need to buy more time for my phone...
As stupid and trivial as it sounds, accidentally saying something really stupid like that makes me feel awful. I don't know why.
Not to mention that J has gone home for a couple of days and that means no piano or facebook here, because she locked her door. I also have no meat. I may not eat a lot of meat, but it's important.
And I have reason to be concerned about everything else -- I can't seem to be at the right time to get to the laundry room, and the N. Americans talking about their plans for the pubcrawl tomorrow are really bothering me. (real)Tuuli said that she thinks people won't be too drunk because we all have commitments on Wednesday but I'm not convinced because I think I know Canadians better. They're already proposing to ask our teacher if we can start class later on Wednesday. But I feel compelled to go because they will be stopping at the karaoke bar, and I need to get a photo of myself in an anxious situation for an assignment: maybe I'll just go outside and busk on my flute or something if I get too uncomfortable.
So I was sitting at Cheers tonight with the "group" and I heard all of the above that brought me concern, and then I typed desperate text messages to Harri. After a few long desperate phone calls today I need to buy more time for my phone...
