Doubts

I know Steph didn't really like her experiences living in Schäffer last year, and she urges me to really really think carefully about all this - but Kim's going to be an RA there next year and I hope I can be on her floor. Steph fears for me because the people on her floor were really rowdy and heck, the whole of frickin' Lister is rowdy on certain nights...or weeks...a lot of times each semester...and I know I won't be leaving anything of mine lying around outside my room since I don't appreciate my property being sabotaged or trashed or otherwise maimed.

I visited Kim's room yesterday; she has one of the smaller rooms (they're all funny sizes in there, since the building's shaped like a pair of pants) but it still has so much storage space. There's a big closet with racks, racks in the bathroom, a huge corner hutch desk with lots of shelves, drawers under the bed. That's so much space I wouldn't know what to do with it - as soon as I figure out where to put the boxes for my printer and my stereo and stuff. And I'll need plastic bins for those racks for my smaller objects.

Yesterday one of my thoughts was: Am I running headfirst into my enemy's sword by deciding to move there? Not only passing through what I had nicknamed the "gates of hell" but choosing to live beyond that gate...will I be able to handle it? Will 'embedding' myself behind enemy lines make my quest any easier...or more difficult?

I can only be assured that what is meant to pass will pass...that I will be granted safe passage through the gates...that I will not trip and fall...and break what is left of me...

And where on earth is forgottenlord? He hasn't been online all day. Maybe he didn't hook his computer back up when he got home?