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Notes. Complications.
Sep. 14th, 2004 12:35 am
11:40am - I'm not sure what is going on but maybe it was my coffee. I feel a bit dizzy and earlier I could feel my stomach throbbing. I think that was my pulse. I can't keep myself awake right now, and something is still churning down there.
Sociological hypothesis: Incidence of cancer and heart disease is greater in the higher educated.
Why do I always have to get the bin with the most items missing? (chem lab supplies)
[Warning: vent below]
Later - I was baking cookies with my roommates today and one of them had her music on the stereo in the living room. When her CD finished playing, I decided to put on one of mine Finnish ones. Then she bugs me about putting her disc back into its case, which I didn't before because I didn't know where it belonged. The other roommate seemed to be pretty interested, and sat down to enjoy it and stuff, but the first one came back, after three and a half songs, with another one of her discs and gives mine back to me. She's always got this sort of cold stare when she looks at me. It's just like me and my sister, but worse. I don't mind listening to my sister's music when she puts it on; sometimes I even like it. But she minds when I do, and instead runs off to her room or something to hide from it. Certainly, on my own time, I predominantly listen to Finnish music, but it doesn't mean that I absolutely refuse to listen to anything else. Otherwise how on earth could I walk through a shopping mall and survive?
I'm really offended by how my roommate just cuts me off without even telling me a reason. In some ways that's happened to me before, but that's another story... I mean, sure, it's her stereo, but that doesn't mean that she can cut me off in the middle while I really don't mind listening through her music. I bring my music and my ideas out because there isn't too much I can contribute to their cooking or their shopping or time, and this is what I have to share. I appreciate how my other roommate was curious about what it was and took the effort to get a feel for it, but it bothers me when people reject my stuff and my ideas just because it's different, especially without telling me first.
I dunno. It's not something that's really worth getting boiled up about. Yet it's important to me because otherwise I don't feel like I'm playing my part and giving as much as I take. Is it really that hard to be willing to expose yourself to something new, rather than only sticking to what you know you like, and giving the rest of us opportunity to share what unique things we have to contribute?
Sociological hypothesis: Incidence of cancer and heart disease is greater in the higher educated.
Why do I always have to get the bin with the most items missing? (chem lab supplies)
[Warning: vent below]
Later - I was baking cookies with my roommates today and one of them had her music on the stereo in the living room. When her CD finished playing, I decided to put on one of mine Finnish ones. Then she bugs me about putting her disc back into its case, which I didn't before because I didn't know where it belonged. The other roommate seemed to be pretty interested, and sat down to enjoy it and stuff, but the first one came back, after three and a half songs, with another one of her discs and gives mine back to me. She's always got this sort of cold stare when she looks at me. It's just like me and my sister, but worse. I don't mind listening to my sister's music when she puts it on; sometimes I even like it. But she minds when I do, and instead runs off to her room or something to hide from it. Certainly, on my own time, I predominantly listen to Finnish music, but it doesn't mean that I absolutely refuse to listen to anything else. Otherwise how on earth could I walk through a shopping mall and survive?
I'm really offended by how my roommate just cuts me off without even telling me a reason. In some ways that's happened to me before, but that's another story... I mean, sure, it's her stereo, but that doesn't mean that she can cut me off in the middle while I really don't mind listening through her music. I bring my music and my ideas out because there isn't too much I can contribute to their cooking or their shopping or time, and this is what I have to share. I appreciate how my other roommate was curious about what it was and took the effort to get a feel for it, but it bothers me when people reject my stuff and my ideas just because it's different, especially without telling me first.
I dunno. It's not something that's really worth getting boiled up about. Yet it's important to me because otherwise I don't feel like I'm playing my part and giving as much as I take. Is it really that hard to be willing to expose yourself to something new, rather than only sticking to what you know you like, and giving the rest of us opportunity to share what unique things we have to contribute?
