Poison of the soul (phrase thanks to DK#1)[journal]

I cannot let poison touch me. Most definitely not if it cries like this. For this is the temptation that I have had in the past, that which came after, first, the temptation to drink, which has come within my power and done before. If it is true that there are cycles, then let me not be tempted and become druggèd, for the rest of my existence, for beyond that lies the last temptation, the one to commit mortal sin, and that outcome must be prevented in every and any way possible. There is only so far a fallen angel can fall, and I may soon come close to the bottom.