Real Work - I am given a choice...
Jul. 30th, 2007 10:38 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kyrasantae
My dad said it's up to me to decide when my last day of work should be, given that we're going to Vancouver on Aug. 22 and I'll need time to pack for the trip as well as pare down all the crap I'm taking back up to my dorm immediately after.
Now I'm stuck here trying to consider when my last day should be.
I've found myself in tears before my shift last night and right now; though last night was relatively much more peaceful, the verbal abuse I've been put through by some of my coworkers in the last few weeks haven't so much stressed me out but have made me feel threatened and small and put on the defensive.
At first I thought it wouldn't hurt me so much, that I should learn to put it behind me and try to find a way to befriend these people and laugh along, but I find their hurtful words still haunting me, mocking me in the back of my head. And it makes me scared.
I wanted to talk to my manager yesterday about it but she wasn't at work. I hope she's back today...
I also so desperately want my diurnal life back - so that I can go shopping, watch a movie, do some painting - all the things I thought I'd have time to do while at school but never did and now have no time to do even on summer holiday.
I could quit this week at the end of the pay period, or I could quit on Aug. 16, the last work day before the week I go on my trip, or somewhere in between.
But I have to make a choice. And somewhere along the way I hope that there will be relief, eventually.
Once the stone you're crawling under
Is lifted off your shoulders
Once the cloud that's raining over your head
Disappears
The noise that you hear
Is the crashing down of hollow years
(on the piano... but most definitely not)
Morning update: I caught up with my manager and she'll have a word with the two people in question tonight.
As for when to quit, I think this week may be too early... and end of next pay period would be the aforementioned 16 Aug. I'm leaning towards leaving work at the end of next week; that way I'll still have a week to myself to get packing as well as get personal stuff done. I dunno. What do y'all think?
Now I'm stuck here trying to consider when my last day should be.
I've found myself in tears before my shift last night and right now; though last night was relatively much more peaceful, the verbal abuse I've been put through by some of my coworkers in the last few weeks haven't so much stressed me out but have made me feel threatened and small and put on the defensive.
At first I thought it wouldn't hurt me so much, that I should learn to put it behind me and try to find a way to befriend these people and laugh along, but I find their hurtful words still haunting me, mocking me in the back of my head. And it makes me scared.
I wanted to talk to my manager yesterday about it but she wasn't at work. I hope she's back today...
I also so desperately want my diurnal life back - so that I can go shopping, watch a movie, do some painting - all the things I thought I'd have time to do while at school but never did and now have no time to do even on summer holiday.
I could quit this week at the end of the pay period, or I could quit on Aug. 16, the last work day before the week I go on my trip, or somewhere in between.
But I have to make a choice. And somewhere along the way I hope that there will be relief, eventually.
Once the stone you're crawling under
Is lifted off your shoulders
Once the cloud that's raining over your head
Disappears
The noise that you hear
Is the crashing down of hollow years
(on the piano... but most definitely not)
Morning update: I caught up with my manager and she'll have a word with the two people in question tonight.
As for when to quit, I think this week may be too early... and end of next pay period would be the aforementioned 16 Aug. I'm leaning towards leaving work at the end of next week; that way I'll still have a week to myself to get packing as well as get personal stuff done. I dunno. What do y'all think?
